a big decision -- CONTRACT =/

been thinking of this decision since the day i got home from Peniel..
should i sign the contract?
truLy it's not a joke if i would sign it..
it's a 1 year contract..
i don't know what might happen if i pursue signing it..


it bothers me most.. but just maybe after i commit myself with that..
there's good in return.. maybe it's him? (hoping..)
it would be a year so maybe after it i can have the love that i'm longing for if fate destined it..
but if not, i'll accept it and what can i do?
oh common! positive vibes..

can't help myself.. i feel terribly bad.. =/
hopefulLy i could made up my mind until Dec. 19, 2009 comes..