COMPANION..

i'm longing for..

waiting for..

how i'd wish..

when that time comes..

he would be my last..

my other haLf..

my C.....

(i can't express through words what i really feel right now :( )

it's been 2 weeks.. :(

pieces of me :(

today might not be a good day for me..
starting this day with doubts and without knowing what would happen next..
i thought everything was in proper place and seems right but then it wasn't..
how could i stop thinking what's happening around me if everyday all i can think about was their goodness..
what about me?my happiness.. :(
i wanted to screamed out,i've never been before in this kind of situation..
and God knows that i don't intend to hurt anyone's feelings..

can someone take me out of this pLace?i can't take it no more..
i feel so aLone..got left out in this dark room..
...and leave me hanging behind.... :(

heartily....HEART, I LOVE YOU :)

how would i start my new post?haha..i just feel talking again but i can't talked to anyone at this moment..they were all asleep..so i share my thoughts with this blog..

here i go again..hmm..have you ever wonder why i entitled my post heartily?
well..it's because i wanted.LOL..kidding aside,lately i'm thinking every now and then why the word "heartily" that i used often comes on my mind..and that's it..the title speaks for itself.. :D

anyways,heartily means so much to me and exactly it's the 14th day of September today..14,the date when i started using "HEARTILY RHAMCEZ" - i'm thinking who can be the one that could take good care of my heart..and whisper to me,heart-I LOVE YOU-haha..but..whoa my mind is now thinking,remembering,reminiscing..i dunno what's next..
OMG..i can't hep thinking..thinking about..whooossh..

isn't this blog too weird?haha..sorry if someone could read it,my fingers just typed whatever my mind speaks..haha..i'm so ewan at this moment..so bangag that's why i can't really process what should i ought to say..maybe the next time around i could make a part 2 of this "HEART-I LOVE YOU" -i really need enough rest at this time..so that's it..just wait for the second part,and i guarantee you..it would be more meaningful..haha..

SO HOW'S MY DAY?my day..it was a nice one,it made me feel better and back to my comfort zone and it's because of that special someone who become more happier today and hope so could be in happiness every now and then..seeing him happy would make me feel fine..that's all i wanted him to be,to be in HAPPINESS :D

goodnight my dearest blogger,my diary, my bestfriend..thanks,that's all for today,HOPE SO I CAN WRITE MY EVERYDAY THOUGHTS STARTING TODAY.. (haha..parang baliw lang ako,kulang nalang sagutin ako ng blogs ko..haha)

HOW I'D WISH..

i really wished to fulfill my parent's dream for me..
but there are many what if's that bothers me a lot..
what if i failed?what if i disappoint them?
what if i couldn't do this?what if i can't make their dream come true?
WHAT IF???(sad/confused)

here we go again,they talked to me and they wanted me to spend another year in college after my 4th year,everybody pushed me to take the CPA board exam. in our family..
they expect a lot..a lot..a lot..
sometimes i wanna give up and tell them that i want to quit..
but i can't, i dunno if i could make it..
if i could pursue their dreams for me..
if i could..sshh..i'm talking again here in my account just to lessened my burdens..

how i'd wish i have my companion,my man,to make me feel i could do all this..
wish..wish..hope..hope..trust..guidance..and FAITH TO GOD..

i'm speechless when they asked me so,there's no wrong with trying but what if i didn't reach their expectation for me?
things become more harder again,i just can't stop thinking with all those expectations..

:(...

Perhaps it's a SOL'N..

it really aches -- seeing-- holding another heart..
i can't do anything at all..
he tells me "i love you" but his heart was locked..
SO SAD.. (teary eyes)

SO..we made a decision not to let it end with something that could hurt anyone else..
maybe this one could work out if we stay as friends..
i guess my decision is not bias at all..
and yes we're happy with each other company..
he make me smile, i make him laugh..
not bad at all..

hope so that we can maintain our good relationship with each other.. ^^,